just asking. i don't really know how it works. i thought i might be able to figure i out, but i guess i'm hopeless. i know a few people who are very social on-line and maintain many connections with lots of people.

maybe i don't know how to be interesting when i'm not with someone in person, or maybe i come off as an arrogant ass. it could be that i'm too lazy or incompetent to maintain a relationship that develops through typing messages back and forth. i suppose it also doesn't help that i can't get any chat applications to work with my version of lynix.

i'm probably being stupid by asking, and i probably don't deserve an answer either, i'm just kind of upset about alot of things right now and i feel like maybe i might get somewhere if i poke around a bit! i guess i'm just terrible at communities. i'm probably better off just keeping to my work and posting it when i can, i just really wish i could connect with someone right now instead of always feeling like there's something about me that makes me unwanted.